Good grief we have had a month of issues.

I have only just found out this morning that bear has been in hospital for 4 days, he has just come out today, grrrr he never rang or told anyone. I don't know why he was there as it must be s state secret.

Meanwhile back on the farm all is well, the girls are really doing well and have recovered from pop passing away. I still find myself wanting to ring him, which might be a bit hard now.
Sandy is still with us and will be for another month, so it has been great to have another woman to chat too. She is marvelous around the house, and really I dont want her to go.

Jas is busy with lambing, and farm work, he has been putting in some horrendous hours and is getting a little tired. We have had a few speed bumps in our relationship this week, but I think its the post funeral and farm work that has been the source of our grouchiness

Well Im off to town with Sandy to go and growl at Bear, will write more later.

love to you all.

Monday thing

Wow what a lovely day we had yesterday. I bit sad in the morning as we went into town and started packing up Pops stuff, a lot of memories there. In the afternoon we went down to the river with the family, the garden crowd and Speedi and Paula. We had a  BBQ dinner, even BBQ the fish the boys caught, it was a lovely end to what has been a horrible week.

I have decided to give up the work training for this year, I will wait and see what happens after the baby is born, so for now its back to my usual job, being Mom, farmers wife (to be) and online accountant.
This week I have the hospital visit re the baby, Jason isnt looking to happy about coming, but he will.

Rumour has it Paula may be pregnant as well, way to go girl.

The gardens next door are a real delight, a huge amount off work has gone into them with a mountain more to do. Karl is in his element and he has united that team around him magnificiently. They are looking at New Year to open them and will have a fair and market day out here, so I am really looking forward to that.

It seems bear is going flatting with sandy, he is converting her spare room intoi an office and the sleepout into a gaming room.
His business venture with Mal is a mystery at this stage, all I can gather is he is waiting for permits, licenses etc. Bear says Mal will be back in new zealand to live around Novemeber.

Well thats me for now lovlies

love you all.

Its Saturday, yet again

Yesterday was a horrible day, I hardly seemed to be not crying. The hole that Pops passing will leave is huge, he was much more than just my father, he was my best friend and for a long time he was the one person in this world I knew I could count on for sure.
Through all the chaos of my separation, through the earthquakes Pop was always there at an instant, as bear said in the Eulogy, "What a man".

Now the funeral has passed I feel empty, almost numb. The girls are being very brave, but I don't think I am helping by being an emotional wreck, it is something I am dealing with, though I know it takes time.
Jason has been there for the girls and I at anytime of the day or night, I am so grateful that I met him; he is a strong man but one who is not afraid to drop his guard, whats more he doesn't mind an emotional fiancee.

Jason and I have tried to talk Sandy into moving in here with us, it makes so much sense, for her financially and company, for us she looks after the house and the girls extremely well. In fact since pop passed away on Tuesday Sandy seems to have lived in the kitchen making endless cups of tea and coffee along with meals and baking, an awesome person when the cards are down.
However she is adamant she wants to return to her house in Christchurch, all I can say is she will be sorely missed by all of us, but I am  determined we will keep in touch and we will try to drag her out here as often as she allows.

Bear has been a mountain of strength for me, I am worried I have already passed my tendency for leaning on Pop to that of leaning on Bear, but he doesn't mind, well he says he doesn't.  He has had everything organised in regards to funerals and lawyers, but more importantly last night he showed more of his spiritual abilities by allowing me to talk to my deceased mother, who says Pop passed over very quietly and is there safe and sound. He is unable to talk just yet as it is too soon since his passing over and his soul energies need to adjust to new environment. Why on earth Bear doesn't allow other people to see and share in his abilities I have no idea, he does not regard himself as a psychic, in fact he says he hates that terminology. He says its more of a case of seeing doors to other energies and knowing how to bring spiritual energies through.
Last night was my first time that I have seen or experienced anything like that, the information was detailed and 100% accurate and there is no way bear could fabricate or guess some of the experiences mum and I talked about, it was awesome.

I know I am going to miss Bear hugely when he goes overseas, the only good news is he says he wont be away too long as he needs to be here for the end of the year, so that is good news. But loosing Pop and then having Bear go away will leave a big hole in my wee world.

The gardens next door are progressing very well, the gang have been very supportive this week in helping me organise the outside events, I am very grateful to them, but I sure wish they would get their website up and going.

Well that's enough waffle, thank you to all the emails, I very much do appreciate them and I will reply to them all, starting today.

Pop passed away

I am so sorry that I havent blogged for a week, but my Opop passed away on Tuesday and I have been a bit of a mess, as have my little girls and Sandy, Pops companion.
The funeral is tomorrow and I am not looking forward to it.

His passing away came as a bit of a shock as Sandy and I had just been visxiting him and were on our way home when we got the phone call to come back quickly. It was all a bit chaotic as i had to ring Jas to pick up the girls from school, but sadly they didnt arrive in time to see him before he passed away.

Jas and I have asked Sandy to stay on here as she is so good with the girls, but she wants to return to ChCh and her flat. Bear has supposedly been staying there in the sleepout while the house is being repaired following earthquake damage.

Anyway more news once I get tomorrow out of the way

love to you all

A very bad week

I came back from my work training in Wellington last Thursday, Pop had a very severe heartattack and was very close to passing away, he is still in hospital and is now in a stable condition, On Friday Sandy had a severe diabetic/heart issue which threw all of us in a panic, it was no doubt caused by the stress of finding Pop after his heart attack. She has now recovered but is still very weak and very pale.

The girls, thank god, are fine. Jas has been busy on the farm with lambing.

There have been major changes over on the gardens, Bear has pulled out due to his work load, he didnt think it was fair that he should be managing it and not contributing, so Karl and Jason are now official managers and leaseholders over the gardens.

There will be no more issues of bears blogs, he says he is far to busy and now his focus has changed. I can vouch for that, he certainly ha changed a lot. He has been involved as a mediator between various clients/insurance companies and CERA, and now he has been offered a new business opportunity which means he could well be leaving Christchurch in the next few months, that will depend on whether they renew his work contract and indeed if he even wants to continue which is more to the point.
Apparently he has spent a very boozy weekend in Wellington with a bunch of wargamers????

Mal has sold his farm to Speedi and Paula and they are already building on it, which is awesome. Mal is still in the States and I think it was through him Baz has this new business opportunity, though its all hush hush and I dont know for certs.

The weather has been good but today has turned nasty again, despite that the lambs keep coming, day and night. I nevr imagined a year ago I would be Mrs farmer, but here I am.
I dont know how my having to leave the work training will effect my work position, my boss was very understanding and it may mean I will have to restart it sometime next year after I have the baby.

The gardens look awesome, a lot of work has been done and it may be ready for opening this summer, Karl is certainly a mover and shaker.

The other good news is Jason and I are getting Married next month, yaaaaa

Well I best go for now. love to you all.

Im Home for the weekend yaaaa

Its great to be home for the weekend. I have missed everyone so much. The work I am doing is expanding at a huge rate, to the point its time to upgrade my PC and software.

Everyone here is fine and though they say they missed me it looks as if they have done fine without me. Sandy and Pop have been in town today, they picked me up from the airport. Sandy caught up with Bear who has been horrendously busy with his new new job.

The gardens are looking a wonder, the people have been working some long hours there it seems.
The farm is doing well and Jason is over the car accident, with no long term worries. This weekend we are drafting sheep, a lot of fun no doubt.

Well thats all for now, more later I hope.

Thursday 9th

I miss my family waaaa

I am in Wellington and will be for several weeks of work training. I have heard from the family down south and they seem to be managing without me, another waaaa for that.

Jas says the farm is doing well and Pop and sandy are being awesome with the helping out. No one has heard from bear, not even those at the gardens. I guess work is busy for him as well.

I am not enjoying it up here, I guess I have become a homebody, besides I miss that hunk of a man of mine, and more than anything I miss the girls.

Well as I should be working I best get back to it.

Love you all.

Sunday 5th August.

This coming week is going to be a big one for me, some weeks ago I was asked to go to a training seminar for my work, I discussed it with Jas and as it was a promotion of sorts and offered more money we thought I should go. Then last week after the accident I cancelled but all week Jas has nagged me to go especially since Pop and Sandy were here to help with looking after the girls. So it was decided on Tuesday I am away for up to 3 weeks.

I am looking towards the challenge but am hating being away from everyone I love, and probably away from my Blog.

We had a big day out here yesterday, we all worked on  my Gardens and tidied up around the farm, even Sandy who cant do a lot because of ill health did a huge amount of scrubbing and cleaning.

Last night we had everyone from the Gardens next door over for a BBQ, that went down very well. Of course Bear wasn’t there he had a morning with his work and a afternoon with his friends. Sandy was talking to Linda this morning and apparently Bear had dinner there last night, she said he left early !!!!

Well today we are going over to the gardens to help out there, so god knows what we can do but it should be fun.

Well I best go and do the breakfast thing, I hope to blog tonight, if not I will catch up when I can.

Saturday 4th and its raining

We had a very busy day here yesterday, there seemed to be people in and out all day long, even into the night visitors were calling in. It sure is nice to have such a social life in comparison to what my life was like a few months ago.

Sad news about Bears Alpaca she aborted her babies yesterday and died last night, the good news is the other 3 Alpacas are fine.  We saw Bear briefly yesterday, but he was just in too much of a hurry, but I have to say he looks TOTALLY different in a business suit.

The Gardens are going well, Karl is running things over there and he has everyone firmly in hand. Though the place looks like what it is – a construction site, it is starting to take shape and it will be a credit to all of them when it’s finished.

I had intended to get into my garden yesterday but that went by the way with all the visitors, however I have all the best of intentions of getting there today, once the rain stops – waaaa.

Carla and Talia are off today to spend the day and tonight at a friend’s place, talk about maximum excitement. It seemed they just couldn’t wait to get away from Jas and I, a bit sad that.

Kyle wanted to go hunting again today, but without Bear here and Jason still not up to pounding the hills he has had to curb his enthusiasm, so instead he will go rabbit shooting up the riverbed.

I have the first real signs of a preggy tummy, my clothes are just starting to get a little tight, quite nice to feel though.

Its Friday yaaaaa

Well it was an interesting day yesterday. Pop and sandy have moved in for 6 weeks and the girls didn’t know they were coming so when they came home to find granddad and Sandy already moved in it was great excitement. Poor ole Sandy got dragged everywhere around the farm and over to the gardens.

I went for a wander over there myself with them and I have to say the team are doing extremely well, I have to say I was surprised because their blog has been very quiet lately; but they all say they are just too tired to sit down and write at night, and of course Bear is in Christchurch without a PC so he won’t be blogging anytime soon.

I heard from him last night and he has his first clients but he said their initial meeting was only an hour so he had the day to himself. He brought Pop and Sandy out early in the afternoon but didn’t stay. I asked him would he be out here for the weekend and he said no, he would stay in town as he had some games arranged with his mates and I bet that includes a boozy Saturday night watching Rugby finals.

We haven’t done a lot out here, the farm is ticking along without any great input from us, I can’t do my gardens very well, and one hand gardening just isn’t fun.

Jason is doing well, the bruise on his head is slowly going down and the headaches have stopped, his head is just tender. He is busting to get out on the farm but I have to sit on him (not an entirely unpleasant experience) to make sure he doesn’t sneak out and do things on the farm.

Just had a call from Michele, panic … she thinks one of Bears’ Alpacas are about to give birth. What should she do???????

Good ole Jas has rushed off to the rescue and the girls don’t want to go to school they want to see the babies…that’s not happening.

Sandy has a full day of catching up with old friends today, so Pop is going to have an easier one, he says he may work on my gardens for me. Interesting Pop should say its easier to do gardening than spend time with Sandy’s friends. Pop and sandy seem to be hitting it off rather well, its an odd relationship more of one of need and friendship than love I suspect, but boy she sure fusses around him and he loves it. Often he would give me a smile and a wink when she was making him coffee or supper, he certainly has changed.

Well I suppose I best go do some work and wait to hear about the Alpaca babies, I have rung Bear to tell him the news and he is on his way out already; Michele had rung in a panic. He said he doesnt think it is birthing, but there could be problems so he has rung the vet as well.

Thursday, 2nd of August - morning report.

Pop and Sandy are moving in with us this week, its going to be awesome to have all of us together. Bear is taking Sandy shopping this morning and then they pick up Pop and come out here. Bear spent his first night in Sandy’s sleepout and “froze his butt off” so a heater is in order then Mr Bear.

Jas is feeling a little better today, the girls want to paint the easter egg on his head, the bruise has come out to a whopping size so its just as well he is off to the doctors today for a checkup. Michele called in on her way down to the gardens and she is ecstatic to have Bears place to herself, she says she may not let him back in, yeah good one Michele, wish you luck with that.

Bear starts his new job today, this morning he is meeting his first client and he sounds a little nervous, but I know he will be great at it, he has knack of bulldozing through  red tape.

Well not much to report this morning, hopefully more news tonight.